Tyler West got emotional as he revealed that he attempted suicide after witnessing a murder at the age of 14 which still haunts him to this day.

The TV presenter, 29, recalled how that day ‘changed my world forever’ as the violent attack led to ‘PTSD that I just couldn’t get rid of,’ and ‘clouds of dark thoughts’ that he lives with ‘every single day’.

Speaking to Paul C Brunson on We Need To Talk, Tyler explained how the harrowing day still affects him.

He began: ‘I witnessed a murder. It’s so hard, every single time I talk about it, because the minute I say the word, it takes me back to that 14 year old self.’

Tyler explained how, while growing up on a council estate, he noticed some ‘local alcoholics’ having an argument outside his house when he came back from school.

The TV personality explained how he watched from his bedroom window: ‘One of the two men had a 12 inch kitchen knife in his hand. He cut and slashed the man’s neck open, and the man was holding it, and has then fallen onto the ground in the middle of the road.’

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Tyler West got emotional as he revealed that he attempted suicide after witnessing a murder at the age of 14 which still haunts him to this day

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The TV presenter, 29, recalled how that day ‘changed my world forever’ as the violent attack led to ‘PTSD that I just couldn’t get rid of,’ and ‘clouds of dark thoughts’ that he lives with still

Tyler continued: ‘My mum was on the phone, it must have been about 7 or 8 minutes with the police, and in that seven-eight minutes the man did not stop slashing and stabbing and slashing and stabbing. And it went on and on and on, and I was just frozen. I remember it.

‘Then my mum naturally, as a nurse, said I’ve got help and my mum’s got some towels and she’s gone to run out there. Then I’ve seen the two men coming out of the apartment, and I’ve run down and I’ve dragged my mum inside the house.

‘He was wearing an England shirt and it was just, it was a white English shirt, just covered in red. And I just see this man. It didn’t feel real. It felt like something from a horror movie. And he was just there, laying in front of me.

‘And I’m literally as close as we are now. And, the police turned up. They went in and arrested the two men. It was tear gas. There was a lot going on. And then I heard a voice at the other end of the road, and it was my brother.

‘Because by the time my mum got off the phone to the police, she had phoned my brother, she was so hysterical on the phone to my brother. My brother thought it was me.

‘So then my brother is screaming at the police, let me up, let me off, it’s my brother, it’s my brother. And then he’s run up the road and looked at this guy and said, oh, thank God. And then came into the house and said, “look Ty, you’re alright.” And I was on the sofa having a panic attack.

‘I don’t remember from seeing the man laying on the floor, to then being on my sofa. It was the hardest moment of my life, without a doubt and it changed my world forever.’

Recalling how the event changed him, Tyler said: ‘Certain things and certain habits started to kick in. Like, for one, I couldn’t open my blind.’

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Speaking to Paul C Brunson on We Need To Talk, Tyler said: ‘One of the two men had a 12 inch kitchen knife in his hand. He cut and slashed the man’s neck open’

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He added: ‘Every single morning I get out of bed, I had to make my bed because otherwise I was convinced something bad would happen to me. I couldn’t use a knife and fork’

He added: ‘Every single morning I get out of bed, I had to make my bed because otherwise I was convinced something bad would happen to me. I couldn’t use a knife and fork. I couldn’t, if anything sort of happened in an action movie, and it was like, anything to do with a knife, absolutely not.

‘Even to this day, my partner Molly, she hides my eyes… She checks in on me and I’m like – it’s still so raw. Even like, I’ve just come to the conclusion that I will never, I will never get that image out of my head. I live with it every single day.

‘I couldn’t walk on the same side of the street that it happened. You could see where the blood, like that part of the street was cleaner than the rest of it, because where the blood had been cleared up. There, there was just a lot.

‘Any time alcohol or drugs were involved in an environment or setting I was in, I would immediately put my back up. I’m convinced somebody is going to die, I’m convinced there’s going to be a fight.

‘I’m convinced it was like all this PTSD that I just couldn’t get rid of. And it turned me into the protector, weirdly, it turned me into the person that I’d be the first to step in and separate people, because I wouldn’t want it to get to that.’

Years later, as he suffered from the affects of the murder, Tyler struggled with his mental health after bottling up what he witnessed.

He continued: ‘The thing is, when something significant like that happens, it’s a ripple effect, right? It’s like dropping a stone into a pond… and it doesn’t just affect the man who’s getting stabbed and the families and the victims or anything like that. It affects the community around it.

‘It was all to do over a 20 pound bag of cocaine. And that’s crazy, life can just be gone in an instant… I didn’t want to talk about anything.

‘My reaction to it all, was no, I can’t talk about it and that was probably the worst decision I ever made, like not talking about it… Because it built up a lot, like it was just let’s sweep it under the carpet to the point that then it was unavoidable.

‘And then it all came out at once in so many different ways, to the point that, yeah, I tried to kill myself, like it was tough. It was really tough.’

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Years later, as he suffered from the affects of the murder, Tyler struggled with his mental health after bottling up what he witnessed

Tyler recalled waking up in the middle of the night and going for a walk, where he found himself standing on top of a bridge.

‘I can’t remember how long I was out on this bridge for. I can’t remember. My phone was dead. Everything. It was, it must have been about half 4 or 5 in the morning, and I didn’t know what I was going to do,’ he said.

‘But I felt so low, and I felt like, I can’t stop thinking about this. I just want to switch off for a second.

‘There was just one car that came past right? And the car beeped. And then I was like, you’re not going to do this. I was like, you can’t. I was like, no way, can you?

‘I went back home. I got into bed and I woke up and I just went about my day. And it’s that low moment right there, I always think about the things that have happened in my past, from growing up and feeling like a real big struggle with abandonment, seeing lives just vanish in front of me.

‘I see all of these things, and I think about those moments and they push me to where I go today, like they keep me going further. They’re actually my biggest strength. And my biggest strength comes about from talking about things.’